"get her back"

Every object I touch

seems to fall apart

and every time I speak

it seems to leave a scar;

medicine can’t fix me

and healing seems like a scheme

because at one point I was six years

and realized

I was never meant to be

so I pretended I didn’t exist,

I erased the image

of the girl I knew I was

and created something new

like a paintbrush on a blank canvas

but I painted over Monet’s lilies

and I can never get them back-

all of these people

are now

what I once was

but I can’t get her back.